Random Musings of an Uninspired Muse.

So Im leaving on Friday.

....What.

Really, it hasn't sunk in yet. I honestly dont know when it will, or if it ever will, but it all feels very surreal right now. Like I was telling Jordy earlier, if It wasn't for her and Bridgette I never would have gotten into art in the first place, and now Im going to art school. Huh.

Like, before I was all excited and crap. And now Im just kind of...meh. Im still excited, but now my all-encompassing excitement is tainted with apprehension and fear. Go figure.

AND this art block wont go away o_o its very, very unfortunate and ill-timed, as most art blocks are I suppose. Its not as if I dont have a bunch of things I want to draw, it just doesn't translate to paper. I guess Im a bit intimidated by going to school and its leaking into my subconsicous. Anyway, enough of my wangst.

It seems like these couple of past weeks have been filled with me saying goodbye to people. Every time someone's all "Ill miss you JaLisa!" I come back with a "Ill be back in September!". I dont think its so much of me trying to reassure people as it is me reassuring myself, for what reason I have no idea. I really, really dont know why I'd be reassuring myself about that, all things considered. Last week (I think? Yeah) I went to eat at Chilis with Lauren, Sierra and Mary Anne which was fun, and then we went back to Mary Anne's to make smores which just turned into a really weird but fun event, seeing as we had to relocate because of the wasps and then the fire wasnt hot enough and the smores werent very smore-like, but delicious all the same.

On Friday I went with Andre and Charda to see Wanted, which was a good movie despite the bad reviews. Story wise it was a little lame, but I think its overall goal was over the top action and crazy bullet time and Morgan Freeman going all Samuel L Jackson on people and the amazing CG-ness and the Angelina Jolie and the every-sexy Common, and it did that very well. I was pleased.

On Saturday and Sunday we had our Family Reunion, which was....a family reunion. On Monday Mary Anne Nathan and I went to see Wall e, which was just amazing, and today I went to eat at the Cafe at the Mall with Mrs. Annette and Mary Anne, and had the best quiche in the world. I've done more socially these past two weeks than I've done in the past two years of my life, five years even. I could say alot about that, but I wont. It would lead this post down another tangent of wangsty-ness and thats just not cool, so no.

I cant stop picking at my face. Its a nervous habit, and I know it makes me look all spotted and scarred and like a crackhead but I cant help it o_o its like how i used to chew and the sides of my fingers till they bled, and how I scratch at my hair. I wish my nervous habit was something more mundane and not noticable like blinking regularly (which I dont do) or wiggling. Or thumb-twiddling.

Welp, my room is mostly clean now. I've got that one spot under my bed that I need to finish cleaning out but thats pretty much it. Im deathly afraid that Im going to forget something, like my tablet driver CD or my flash drive or my contacts or something. Supposedly we are leaving at 9 o clock on Friday morning, which probably means 8 or 8 thirty. Anyway, I may update tomorrow. Thats about it.